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April 14th, 2009 | 11:08pm
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[ mood | bitchy ]

I really hate school. I overestimated myself when I chose classes last year. The classes aren't too hard individually, but all together with work and life stresses, I can't handle it all. My grades don't reflect my potential. I just can't wait for summer, when all I'll have to worry about is life, work, apprenticing at the theatre, and my summer reading, which should be a breeze because I love reading. I really miss it. I would read a little tonight, but I have to study for a test tomorrow morning. I hate that I have to get up to be at school at 6:30AM.

concentration, alertness [
March 30th, 2009 | 12:14am
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[ mood | very blah ]

I'm finding it extraordinarily difficult to concentrate on the paper I have due tomorrow. I've been awake for 13 hours, so that's nothing. I hate Sunday nights. They lead to Monday mornings: my brain's favorite time to have a panic attack. At least I've been too "fuck-it" to have too many panic attacks. I just have a difficult subject to research, and although I might have made do with the resources at hand if I was awake and feeling productive, I just can't now. I feel like venting. Work was a bitch. I was in a crappy mood to begin with. Some people at work were cool enough to make me laugh or smile for a few minutes at a time, but there is the permanent reminder that my workplace is full of sexist assholes and I just can't wait to go to college and get out of it. My mind is drifting. My laundry is still running. Maybe if I wake up in a couple hours I can scrounge something together.

December 6 [
December 6th, 2008 | 2:15pm
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[ mood | mellow ]











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September 17th, 2008 | 4:00pm
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[ mood | pissed off ]

One of my most angry days I've had in a long time. It is so far, at least.  I want to yell at and beat up everyone who talks to me. And the only reason I have time to be online at the moment is because I'm going to be late to work because I didn't know my uniform was in the wash and I have to wait for it. Even so, I should be doing homework right now, but apparently it's something horrible that I don't spend more time doing useless things online when other things demand my time.

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September 9th, 2008 | 10:37pm
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[ mood | exhausted ]

Blah blah blah. School is a big load on my shoulders. My job isn't helping, but I like to have a little money. I've barely been on my computer since school started. Found some time tonight mainly because I was installing my new printer/scanner/copier. Trouble is, the ink cartridge doesn't want to go in and the scanner doesn't want to scan. I'll figure it out in due time. Now I've got to study for an AP Biology test, figure out how to do some trig (a class I haven't taken) *for* my physics homework, which is due tomorrow. Sadly, my to-do list is bigger than that, but unless I want to go without sleep entirely, a few things must be purged. *sigh*

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August 22nd, 2008 | 3:05pm
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[ mood | distressed ]

School started again this week. I have six classes, five of which are academic, three of which are AP. It'll be four next semester. The other two academic classes are honors. And I am scared. I'm supposed to get straight A's this year, and I would have to work my ass off if I was trying to get B's, for crying out loud. I already didn't have a social life...this isn't helping much. Oh well. Maybe it'll make me smarter and able to handle more. The college I pick will be damned if they don't appreciate my effort.

Writer's Block: Your Username [
August 17th, 2008 | 11:21pm
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[ mood | exhausted ]

Why did you choose your user name? Is there any special meaning or story behind it?
1. I needed a username.
2. "Gabrysia" is what I'm usually called in Polish.
3. "LaLa" made it rhyme and sound more catchy.

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August 5th, 2008 | 2:07am
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[ mood | disappointed ]

I just realized a minute ago that I don't have any Billy Joel on my iPod. What the fuck is wrong with me.

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August 4th, 2008 | 12:41am
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[ mood | blah ]

Day: Good and bad.

Bad: Woke up in the afternoon. Fun, but wasteful and regrettable.

Good: Sitting and swinging like a child with an iPod. Extremely fun experience. Then talking to best friend on phone, also while sitting on swingset. Hurt my ass, though... But I'm going back.

I'm almost done with the book I'm reading. I'll finish it tomorrow, if not tonight. I'm frankly surprised that it's taken this long. I'm either not as passionate about reading as I used to be, or this book doesn't hook me like some do. Ah well..after this it's Breaking Dawn, then Nickel & Dimed, then Eragon/whatever book is after it in the series because my sister won a combo of the two at the Breaking Dawn release party and isn't going to read them herself.

I cannot believe it's August already. This is insane. I miss school a little mainly because I'm bored and annoyed of sleeping in all the time and I'm not seeing as many people, which feels weird even though I'm a serious loner. But I don't want summer to end. I like the feeling of managing my own time and not being owned by schoolwork and actually being at school. But I like learning and that happens faster at school. *sigh* At least I have an iPod now, my first one and I bought it a few days before school ended last semester. That should pass the time when I don't need to be paying attention to anyone. And I'm finally beginning to get more of the music I like onto it. I'm excited about that, even though it means that I've spent like $100 in the past week or two. Woops!

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July 30th, 2008 | 1:55am
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[ mood | calm ]

Sometimes it surprises me how open-minded I get when I go to the beach at night. Tonight is a great example. I wasn't in the greatest mood, so I grabbed my iPod (and not my cell phone) and went for a walk, which of course led me to the beach. iPod on shuffle and the light turned off, I just climbed the ladder to the bigger lifeguard stand and sat there for about an hour and a half. It was great..the music on my iPod is very variant, so I listened to bits of everything. I looked at the sky most of the time. It was a little windy, so it wasn't too hot and the clouds were moving. I noticed how everything seemed to be the same as in the day, but emptier and in shades of black. I thought the stars were twinkling more than usual. I saw a shooting star and made a wish. The clouds made all sorts of different shapes, like a dramatized falling angel and an octopus squirting ink. I contemplated the universe and the principles of entropy, going further in the process of figuring out whether or not the universe makes sense. I believe it would, if I had it all figured out. I try not to think about entropy too much at once..I fear of becoming some mad scientist. More 'mad' than 'scientist'. I didn't really want to come home that badly, but I figured I shouldn't stay out all night. Especially if I wasn't really doing anything. I was alone, but I usually like it that way. I don't think there exist a great many people with whom I could spend time with when there wasn't really a reason to. A few, yeah..but not many.

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July 24th, 2008 | 7:55pm
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[ mood | determined ]

I really do need to remember to get my ass out of the house during the summer. Thank the nonexistent God for Kira, who diagnosed why I've been so messed up in the head lately. Sleeping, working, and watching TV aren't enough for me to stay out of the blues. Plus, she said my room needs redecorating. It couldn't be truer: my room is DEPRESSING. Right now I'm going to do some online shopping to fix that. It's worth investing the money, right?

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July 17th, 2008 | 4:12am
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[ mood | mellow ]

The only thing really bringing me down today is the fact that I'm finding so much new music on Project Playlist, but I don't have a way of getting it all to my iPod without spending a fortune, which I don't have. But my spirits are kept up with the fact that I'm ever expanding my musical horizons.

Plus I've been toying with my hair. Cut my bangs again so that they actually look like bangs. Dyed the bottom half of my head of hair black, the rest of which for now is my natural dark brown. Not too noticeable, but it looks cool. I call it my pudding-hair. I have more plans for my hair, but they'll probably wait another couple weeks. Not too expensive, since it's all going to be DIY. Layering and a little more dyeing, so I only have to pay for the dye.

I've been meaning to write for a writing prompt in one of the communities I'm in. I should do that before I leave the computer for the night.

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July 14th, 2008 | 11:25pm
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Classic day of mine this summer: Wake up to a call from Kira at 1:00pm. Go through complications with laundry. Go to work. Walk home with iPod. Go on the computer to check bank, email, livejournal, myspace, and project playlist. Fall asleep reading.

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July 13th, 2008 | 3:48am
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[ mood | chill ]

Still trying to find communities and some friends.. I haven't done much on LJ yet. But I shall! Woke up super late today, so I'll be up all night, spending my time listening to Pandora Radio and perusing LJ. Woop.

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July 6th, 2008 | 3:34pm
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[ mood | contemplative ]

I live for my days off work.

Independence Day [
July 5th, 2008 | 2:52pm
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[ mood | calm ]

It was quite interesting. I really got to see the similarities between some members of my family. And I got a couple giggle moments. My favorite quote of the night: "Polish people don't need a REASON to celebrate!!"

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July 3rd, 2008 | 3:05pm
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[ mood | hopeful ]

3:05 and it's quite dark indoors. Sweet.

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July 3rd, 2008 | 2:23pm
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[ mood | discontent ]

There's a poster I've been wanting to make for my room, to jazz the place up a bit. I have high hopes for it. I want to finish soon. I really feel like drawing, but I'm not feeling the creative vibe. I hate when this happens. It looks like it's going to rain, but it's been doing that for days without raining. Yesterday it was even thundering like a bitch, but we haven't had as much rain as the clouds lead us to believe. I hope it rains. Rain makes everything in my life better.

First Entry in Ages [
July 1st, 2008 | 3:33pm
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[ mood | mellow ]

Yeah, I haven't had a livejournal in like two years, so here we go.

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